Just Trying to Figure It Out
Means

Life is full of means.  Means to an end.  Justifying the means.  Means, medians, modes.  And then there’s living within your means.  There was a time I like to call the perfect economic storm.  When things were so good that I had, essentially, 6 jobs and not enough of me to go around!  The cheddar was flowing like a mighty wind.  I was exhausted and could barely keep up, but I was financially secure.  There is a lot to be said about that.  I wasn’t ever worried about spending because I knew I would always make more.  I paid my bills, was paying off debt, ate and drank when and where I wanted, shopped, travelled, you name it.  Oh wait—save?  I thought you might say that.  Well, I saved a little.  Suze Orman and I SO did not know who each other were yet.  And now I’m learning from my mistakes.  But I am staying afloat and am MUCH happier than when I was being pulled in every direction, overworked and underenjoying life.   Now I have more time to divide with the things that I REALLY want to be doing.  And I’ve adjusted my spending habits and become a lot smarter.  Even grocery shopping or at Duane Reade, I ask myself “Do I need this?” (That’s right, Suze, I’m learning!)  While reading Real Simple, I came upon a quote that I loved:

“Wealth consists not in having great possessions but in having few wants.”

-ESTHER DE WAAL

It’s really about adjusting your attitude.  What’s important in life?  What do I want?  What do I have?  What do I need?  I am very fortunate in so many aspects of my life.  I have food, shelter, and clothing.  Beyond that I have a huge, imperfect, lovable family that will always be there for me.  I have my friends, my health, my spirit of adventure, and my generally positive outlook on life.  My proudest accomplishment is my open mind.  I have grown immensely in the almost six years that I’ve lived in New York.  I am so proud of the amount of bravery it took to get to where I am today, and the courage that I still muster daily to navigate this fair city.  I am thankful for the losses and the pitfalls that help fuel the fire.  I am learning to want less, to live within my means, and appreciate this amazing city brimming over with opportunity.  And I feel extremely wealthy.